Shit la! Hate my freakin' life! Too bad that I can't just run away from it! Hate it to the core! HATE!!! God I HATE MY MAID, HATE my f**king life! how nice if I can just run away!!! Can't stand it!!! I'm gonna lose it if I carry on like this! F**KING maid in my house!!! I wanna change my friend's test! I don't hate Steven anymore, I don't only hate my maid! But I hate my life as well! My house used to be so nice without my maid. Since 11 years ago! I can't remember how happy I was back then cause I was like only 3 years old! But I definitely know that I was much much happier! HATE MY SHIT MAID TO THE CORE! That F**KING BITCH! *sigh* that bitch acts so nice to me when she want me to listen to her. Scolds me for no utter freakin' reason she's angry, saying "Stefanie, don't make me angry"... When will that bitch realise that she's not the only one that's angry? I'm not just angry, I'm furious, I'm a volcano just waiting to explode! I can't live my life anymore! This is no longer my life! Definite not my life anymore. I don't really know what I want to do with my life anymore! Everytime I see my mum we argue and quarel, everytime she starts talking to me or I start talking to her it ends up with my father breaking us up. I hate it la! Can't believe people actually have a great time with their mums, example Perceyner. Can't believe Cairyn actually watches movies with her mum. I can't imagine me & my mum like that. Even if we did go out together, there will definitely be at least 1 time when we will argue, never once did we not argue. Me & my mum is just like Lovell & his dad. Hahaha... but not as bad as Lovell, in a way that I'm not in hospital.. HAHAHA! anyways, just hate it when my parents treat me like I was their primary 1 baby! "I'm not a small girl no more! You let my get on the plane on my own since I was 8 years old, you allowed me to go Perth with my friends & the school, why can't you let me just stay 1 night at the chalet! It's not like I'll be doing anything wrong or "against your law" right? Please, and why the hell is aishah dragged into the picture? I just don't get what my mum sees wrong in aishah? Just what is wrong? Aishah is an average person just like everyone is.. expect for the hair (: Hahaha, just joking la. I just don't understand what my mum is thinking la! *sigh* I justcan't stand itwhen she disagrees with me, especially issues that concerns my friends! I hate it when people insult my friends or talk bad about people I care about especially my friends. How can my maid make the comment that I go out with bad company. GOD IF I COULD, I WOULD JUST SLAP HER FACE! How can she say that? She most definitely has no EQ! What I i told her that her friends suck! If her friends were up to no good. How would she feel? How would anyone feel? GOD I JUST WANNA SLAP HER FACE! and she acts like the perfect maid in front of my friends, in front of my parents. God if only my friends know what she's said about them, they wouldn't be praising her, they'll more like hate her, trash her! GOD i hate my life. Just finished quarelling with my mum about the freakin' chalet thing. If you don't want me to stay overnight, I'll just go for HH la! Don't give me all the crap la! GOD i just want to scream! Just run out the door if I could! I hate my life! My mum always ask me when she gets upset with me "You tired of living is it? Pull long face for what?" WELL MAYBE I REALLY AM TIRED OF LIVING! I just don't want to face her anymore! Just hate it! Hate it! Why must my life be like that? But who do I have to blame? The pathetic answeris me. Who did I stupid-ly point at when my parents told me to pick when I was 3 years old? All I have to blame is me, nobody else but me. Me, myself and I. Me, myself, my shit life, my freakin' life. Just hate it to the core! Can't help but cry at my life. Just tearing posting this. Hate it to the core.. CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. hate my life, want it the way it was before!
